JUST KISSES

I think about all the kisses I’m missing. The songs I’m not hearing. The sighs and the yawns. The laughter and the wishful thinking. Advertisements

FINDING MOTIVATION

I believe it is only with some distance we begin to see our true motivations. Get too close to anything and it tends to become blurry. Meditation for me is more about finding not only balance but the right distance. We forget sometimes to take the time to appreciate our breath. How valuable our ability … More FINDING MOTIVATION

SHADE OF BRUISE

Surround yourself with colorful people. You never know when you’ll need to borrow a shade or two. A.R. at StarvingActivist.com Bill at BillFriday.com Cyn at Cynk.wordpress.com David at TooFullToWrite.com Dean at DeanKealy.design Echo at trueecho22.wordpress.com Erica at TheBrokenSpine.net Jessie at BehindTheWillows.com Jesska at NotThrowingStones.today Julie at JulieBurton.blog Matt at TheMatticusKingdom.com Namy at NamySaysSo.com Nessa at … More SHADE OF BRUISE

JUST ONE KICK

*INSPIRED BY THE VIDEO BELOW Watch me, one kick is all it takes Give me your best combat posture Free flowing flexibility, come at me I’ll give you a little taste of disaster Watch out, this ain’t fake stuff Give me your best snappy punch Bust a move, come on little man Let me take … More JUST ONE KICK

MY CONSTELLATION

I am seeing a pattern emerge As I sit here reading and writing my words Like a constellation in the sky My emotions move, they change Sometimes slowly like an evolving season Sometimes spinning at hurricane speeds In the very beginning, before the patterns The words seem scattered and distant Like a ping pong ball … More MY CONSTELLATION

THE STITCHES

People are fascinating.  I love listening to them and figuring out what makes them work.  Tell me your history, your dreams, your greatest fears.  I like to learn how we are the same and how we are different. As much as I like to listen I also like to talk.  However, talking is hard for … More THE STITCHES

UNSPOKEN

Sometimes we see people, not how they are, but how we want them to be.  When that happens relationships deteriorate.  That person will never live up to your expectations.  The only person you should be asking to live up to your expectations is yourself.   Longing for a truth that never existed For words that … More UNSPOKEN

IF I HAD KNOWN

Sometimes it’s hard see a situation clearly when you are in the middle of living it. I’ve lived enough years to know heartache isn’t something we can escape. We all go through it and sometimes it threatens to rip our world apart. Sometimes it sends us spiraling emotionally out of control. We will grasp for … More IF I HAD KNOWN

MY FINAL EPISODE

Last night I took my daughter to see NF. I watched as she stood singing every song word for word. I noticed the wonder in her eyes as she took in the lights, the music, and the performance. She has been to concerts before but this one was special. This was the first concert she … More MY FINAL EPISODE

DON’T BLAME ME

Dreams don’t come so often for me lately.  So this poem isn’t from a dream but rather from me realizing I was sitting in a quiet house staring off into space.  I decided to give my emotional brain a moment to speak.  Don’t blame me it said… you are the one that feeds me. Mixing … More DON’T BLAME ME

TAKE EVERYTHING

This dream was so unclear it was hard to piece together when I woke up.  There were so many faces and it went from theme to theme.  One of the clearest themes included Lady Gaga. I am sure I dreamt about Gaga because the movie “A Star Is Born” has been weighing heavily on my … More TAKE EVERYTHING

FORGOTTEN SORROW

*Sometimes the things we fear most are hidden inside the sorrows we’ve forgotten. My body is cold As I slumber here My heart has slowed Exhausted by fear My breath borrowed My heartache clear Give me this place Called absence To plant my respects To sort the sadness That has defined me Give me some … More FORGOTTEN SORROW

BLACK AND BLUE

Because if I say how I feel Or get confused and twisted If I ask for help deciphering What it is I’ve misinterpreted If I reach out and try to seek A perspective outside myself I might be misconstrued As the escapee condemned Justly accused and caught Red handed trying to escape From these chains … More BLACK AND BLUE

DESPAIR

The nagging feeling persists Like decay eating away at life Small veins of smelly rot snake Through all my thoughts today Whispering into a pained heart The cliffs are beautiful This time of year my dear The ocean perfectly cold And numbing and strong The spirits are many Flavorful and sweet Listen to our voices … More DESPAIR

BLOODY BURDENS

Burdens fall Mixed with blood Tear stained Mud soaked Crushed beneath bodies That won’t stay buried Don’t reach Don’t plead Or They’ll start feeding They’ll start swimming Inside your veins These burdens They’ll mark you Then hook you Then call you by name

A THOUSAND NIGHTS

My soul yearns for permanent connections. I’m not sure there is a way around this yearning. I think it might be a part of all of us. Like a part of why we are here maybe. Good or bad people who impact us leave permanent marks on us. They are a part of us. We … More A THOUSAND NIGHTS

PLEASE DON’T…

**Even decades later it surfaces. Moments I’ve forgotten. Your body heals. Maybe even your heart. But the things trauma of “any” kind does to your brain… that lasts forever. You can learn to live a productive and happy life along side of it but it’s always there. Always. The weight was so heavy But the … More PLEASE DON’T…

THE ESCAPE

There are many places I could hide. A small shadow cast in an already dark room. A clear piece of glass in the corner of an open window. I could sit in plain sight and remain invisible but what is the fun in that? I scared a rabbit yesterday that came too close to the … More THE ESCAPE

PSYCHOTIC BREAK

Fire of self-doubt spreads I can’t fucking get a grip I turn to comedy; You laugh, I laugh My smile distracts you From my pupil’s truth But you’d be daft Not to notice the Exploding disco balls Of flashing insecurity You feign sightless But you’re not blind As you look past me To the devil … More PSYCHOTIC BREAK

TWO HOUR CAR RIDE

Mom it’s just a two hour drive. I would feel better though if you took the train. Seriously?  I love to drive and I will be fine. I would feel better though if you took the train. What if I promise to stop if I get tired? I would feel better though if you took … More TWO HOUR CAR RIDE

PLAY BALL

I get stuck sometimes.  I’ll agonize over things I can’t control.  Things I should NOT control.  It takes some time to breathe stability back into my state of being.  Stability is a an emotional muscle and it has to be exercised regularly in order to function when triggered. Stop. Breathe.  Inhale.  Exhale. Focus. Inhale. Exhale. … More PLAY BALL

UNFIXED

The hole was a symbol Of dread and loss Loss of friendship Loss of control Loss of trust and hope Of dreams and… What did it matter She knew better The hole needed fixed Pffft a symbol Of how foolish she was How blind and naive How completely hopeless The truth was he broke He … More UNFIXED

RUN FOR YOUR LIFE

Adrenaline flows… You can feel it race The oxygen Testing the limits Of every artery Pushing through Every forgotten Sleepy vein Wake the fuck up And run Run for your life Again today

THE COLD WE LIVE IN

It wasn’t her scars Or the memory of their pain How they wound tight Around her heart Or suffocated her brain It wasn’t the holes They dug deep into her skin Or the burns they scorched Into the corners of her grin It was their cold stares It was their cold hearts It was their … More THE COLD WE LIVE IN

FALLING

I’d fall at your feet But your hands Keep me standing Revolving spaces Dissolving mercy Into beautiful grace I’d fall at your feet But your eyes Skip through me Over invisible beats Reviving rhythms I thought were dead I’d fall at your feet But your lips Land soft then hard Melting my insides Erasing doubts … More FALLING