The nagging feeling persists Like decay eating away at life Small veins of smelly rot snake Through all my thoughts today Whispering into a pained heart The cliffs are beautiful This time of year my dear The ocean perfectly cold And numbing and strong The spirits are many Flavorful and sweet Listen to our voices … More DESPAIR


Burdens fall Mixed with blood Tear stained Mud soaked Crushed beneath bodies That won’t stay buried Don’t reach Don’t plead Or They’ll start feeding They’ll start swimming Inside your veins These burdens They’ll mark you Then hook you Then call you by name


**Even decades later it surfaces. Moments I’ve forgotten. Your body heals. Maybe even your heart. But the things trauma of “any” kind does to your brain… that lasts forever. You can learn to live a productive and happy life along side of it but it’s always there. Always. The weight was so heavy But the … More PLEASE DON’T…


Fire of self-doubt spreads I can’t fucking get a grip I turn to comedy; You laugh, I laugh My smile distracts you From my pupil’s truth But you’d be daft Not to notice the Exploding disco balls Of flashing insecurity You feign sightless But you’re not blind As you look past me To the devil … More PSYCHOTIC BREAK


Mom it’s just a two hour drive. I would feel better though if you took the train. Seriously?  I love to drive and I will be fine. I would feel better though if you took the train. What if I promise to stop if I get tired? I would feel better though if you took … More TWO HOUR CAR RIDE


The hole was a symbol Of dread and loss Loss of friendship Loss of control Loss of trust and hope Of dreams and… What did it matter She knew better The hole needed fixed Pffft a symbol Of how foolish she was How blind and naive How completely hopeless The truth was he broke He … More UNFIXED


Adrenaline flows… You can feel it race The oxygen Testing the limits Of every artery Pushing through Every forgotten Sleepy vein Wake the fuck up And run Run for your life Again today


I’d fall at your feet But your hands Keep me standing Revolving spaces Dissolving mercy Into beautiful grace I’d fall at your feet But your eyes Skip through me Over invisible beats Reviving rhythms I thought were dead I’d fall at your feet But your lips Land soft then hard Melting my insides Erasing doubts … More FALLING


The heavy air Echoes my voice As I talk to myself And the words Drop like a stone Into silent water Sending circles To naked shores It’s so cold here Miles away from Where you are


August 2014 was the last time I drank alcohol. When I go back and read the things I wrote before my sobriety and the things I write now I can see a huge difference.  I am so glad to have the reminders of who I was and what alcohol did to my state of mind. … More BLACKOUT


Anarchy Steps heavy with Steel toed boots Torches replace Keystrokes Wooden stakes Carved into words Skewering insides Turning logic Into a constant Trickling streams Of overdosed panic Invisible blood Flows thick Drawing poison From weak souls Until the puss Runs sticky And thoughts sit Restless In puddles Of old and dried Scabby wounds Until remorse … More BREATHING ASHES


  Bleakness got stuck here Held under and drowning Beneath a crimson avalanche Of burnt and mutilated words Desperate for coherent sense To strike like lightening Upon the overgrown heads Of the mountain crawlers To cry like rolling thunder Across a grossly pregnant sky Holding its belly just for spite Stuck and buried we are … More BLEAK DESOLATION


Strong messages Tripped on curves Leaning into her Giving into her Finding their way Inside of her She could feel Their movement Snaking softly Around her hips Slithering inside All her bends Looking for ways To purchase A home within her For the rest Of his eternity


He was a tough man With hard expressions Etched into his eyes A man who grew up On streets named After bullies And drug dealers A place where Everyday traumas Played hide and seek Searching for victims To harass and carry Staining words of hate Inside memories And engraving them With hopelessness A place where … More UNLIKELY POET


  She woke face down On sheets of black The satiny slick kind The soothing cool kind The hiding secrets kind The kind that stole Her soul that night And left her empty To wander streets With eyes wide Wishing for death Because Who she was Was destroyed When her body Fell into the dark … More BLACK SHEETS


Inside the dark Was a storm With a hurricane Made of smoke Piercing hearts With broken words Trampling love With its breath Rancid with fear Dropping bodies From skylines Bruised purple And colored With jealousy Smelling Like lavender Scented soap It pours down Its tragic melody Searching endlessly For our creator Raining down into All … More OF ASHES


There was blood Lots of it actually It wasn’t dripping It was streaming Pooling steadily Below the bed Once white sheets Now sticky sweet Clouds of red Absorbing cotton As if a storm Was brewing This was it My final kill I’d killed many Since I was nine Youngest enlisted Vampire killer Not so great … More KILLER GENTLY


My mind is mad A warship sunk Painted in shades Of millennial rust Man the cannons Raise the flags Today we sail Until once again We falter and fail


You found me in my dreams again And again I couldn’t see your face Only a shape dancing around me Coaxing me from my hiding spot Chasing me to the next dark corner Destroying any safety, any comfort You stole my peace.  And my trust. And here I am left picking at wounds Trying to … More BECAUSE OF YOU


I’ve always expected so much from myself. And now I see my daughter doing the same. We want to paint rainbows in the sky. To rain glitter down on life’s parade. And sometimes we get stuck in the mud. Sometimes we want the mud to swallow us up. BUT what gets us unstuck is the … More EXPECT MORE


We live in a world Where fire rages And water drowns And if we must be fire Let us use it to warm And to give light to dark And if we must be water Let us heal the thirsty And rain on the parched We get to choose How we get on with life


It takes love Fiercely passionate Patient and kind In a world Breeding hate And mistrust Making love A casualty Of childhood We must fight To mine diamonds From our hearts Every single day We can’t give up In our pursuit To discover To uncover The gems hidden Under the pain And anger And we must … More MINE DIAMONDS


  Last night this song came on and though I love this song I have never listened to the words. I was sitting next to my daughter and listening to her belt it out. It was beautiful. Her voice, her strength, her… happiness. I felt, at that moment, she would be okay. She would be … More HELP ME RISE UP


This morning on the way to work I was listening to FUN’s song CARRY ON. I really don’t know the words but this is how the song made me feel. I looked over to see The beauty of night Holding your heart Preparing it to fly I wondered and mused Just for a minute or … More BEFORE YOU GO


He thought the rain was purple I liked purple but I saw more To me it was a million colors Depending on mood, or eyes Or even how the light dances As the drops begin to fall Lazy blues, soft yellow hues Crazy reds bleeding from the sky Pinks falling like rose petals Greys dropping … More THE COLOR OF RAIN


I just started watching Game of Thrones.  My favorite character is Daenerys Targaryen.  She is beautiful.  She is strong.  She is compassionate.  I wonder… if she were a Dragon what kind would she be. I was born a dragon With white feathers From head to toe I never learned Like all dragons do To breathe fire … More IF SHE WERE A DRAGON