The battle is fought inside the storm Where the wet refuses to shake and dry Where the crimson colors dark and light Coat the ground and paint the sky night


Songs rest upon my skin Notes so soft and small Are you listening? Can you feel the melodies The hopeless harmonies? Can you feel words marked In Braille upon my chest? Can you read the music As it’s treble fingers dance Toward the hunger Swelling in my belly? Come my love and let me Share … More OUR SYMPHONY


The whispers came Quietly scampering As if in a dusty attic “Go away” she cried Hoping they’d listen You don’t matter They would taunt You never did You never will They continued “Go away” she cried Trying to mute them But they stayed And they fed On her anxiety On her frustration On her self … More THE WHISPERS


I tried to Slip quietly Out the back But the door Squeaked Then slammed Shut For a few moments I stared Hard at the stars I sucked in air And watched As ice crystals Carried My exhale away The slamming door Woke her up Mommy? Are you okay? Yea baby I was just thinking About … More MADE FOR TWO


You’re beautiful And so are you All the people Doing what’s good You’re trying And so are you All the ways You think you should But it’s never enough And that’s not bad Because it’s time The restricting dad Of the universe Whispering to us Does it matter? Just be good Just keep trying Even … More NEVER ENOUGH


In here the air is still Maybe more hollow A black hole wraps me Inside its stomach As sound disappears Brain is swallowed And I can no longer Feel my own soul But there is something Nudging me, or pulling Something from beyond Reaching silently, towards Into what has become The home I’ve created A … More BLACK HOLE LIFE


Deceit grows a knotted vine Flowers tangled up in twine Wrapping itself around Things unsaid, said carefully Not said at all, implied Forming rows and rows Of tiny little white lies sowed Made-up stories to placate Worry lines dive into deep sea Looking for air hopelessly Where only the dark survives This is where sadness … More SINKING


I follow the signs The cues are there Lined up, waiting I ponder them As they flash and blink They don’t make sense They don’t add up They flash and blink And blink and blink They won’t stop flashing As if I’m dense, or slow Or obstinate or…. I sit mesmerized waiting For them to … More DAMN SIGNS


I have a hard time communicating my emotions.  Emotions aren’t exactly like facts.  They aren’t either JUST this way or that.  They are layered.  Like colors they can be combined and mixed. Each emotion is very different. How do I feel?  Well that’s a complicated one. Do you have some time for me to try … More LEAKY FAUCET


It’s easy to get caught up in our own emotions. Tangled inside our own traps. It’s easy even when we can barely look at ourselves in the mirror. It’s easy even as we are avoiding any kind of self discovery. Many moments I feel lost, abandoned by time Swimming in a world without signs, directionless … More LYRICAL FORAY


I was a piece of thread Twisted into a thousand knots Tied around the moon Tied around the hurt Tied around the ‘never-minds’ Woven inside the tapestry That laid upon your bed Laced between fingers Praying about things unsaid These thousand twisted knots Have made me stronger And I’ll make you stronger too A.R. at … More A THOUSAND KNOTS


Just move along miss! I’ve always hated hearing that piece of advise. As if the past can be painted over. The past is connected to your future like it or not. Even those things you don’t remember… they are there waiting for tomorrow just like you. It’s a small hole That dark spot You try … More BECAUSE STAINS


Surround yourself with colorful people. You never know when you’ll need to borrow a shade or two. A.R. at Bill at Cyn at David at Dean at Echo at Erica at Jessie at Jesska at Julie at Matt at Namy at Nessa at … More SHADE OF BRUISE


I am seeing a pattern emerge As I sit here reading and writing my words Like a constellation in the sky My emotions move, they change Sometimes slowly like an evolving season Sometimes spinning at hurricane speeds In the very beginning, before the patterns The words seem scattered and distant Like a ping pong ball … More MY CONSTELLATION


People are fascinating.  I love listening to them and figuring out what makes them work.  Tell me your history, your dreams, your greatest fears.  I like to learn how we are the same and how we are different. As much as I like to listen I also like to talk.  However, talking is hard for … More THE STITCHES


Sometimes we see people, not how they are, but how we want them to be.  When that happens relationships deteriorate.  That person will never live up to your expectations.  The only person you should be asking to live up to your expectations is yourself.   Longing for a truth that never existed For words that … More UNSPOKEN


Dreams don’t come so often for me lately.  So this poem isn’t from a dream but rather from me realizing I was sitting in a quiet house staring off into space.  I decided to give my emotional brain a moment to speak.  Don’t blame me it said… you are the one that feeds me. Mixing … More DON’T BLAME ME


This dream was so unclear it was hard to piece together when I woke up.  There were so many faces and it went from theme to theme.  One of the clearest themes included Lady Gaga. I am sure I dreamt about Gaga because the movie “A Star Is Born” has been weighing heavily on my … More TAKE EVERYTHING


*Sometimes the things we fear most are hidden inside the sorrows we’ve forgotten. My body is cold As I slumber here My heart has slowed Exhausted by fear My breath borrowed My heartache clear Give me this place Called absence To plant my respects To sort the sadness That has defined me Give me some … More FORGOTTEN SORROW


Because if I say how I feel Or get confused and twisted If I ask for help deciphering What it is I’ve misinterpreted If I reach out and try to seek A perspective outside myself I might be misconstrued As the escapee condemned Justly accused and caught Red handed trying to escape From these chains … More BLACK AND BLUE


The nagging feeling persists Like decay eating away at life Small veins of smelly rot snake Through all my thoughts today Whispering into a pained heart The cliffs are beautiful This time of year my dear The ocean perfectly cold And numbing and strong The spirits are many Flavorful and sweet Listen to our voices … More DESPAIR


Burdens fall Mixed with blood Tear stained Mud soaked Crushed beneath bodies That won’t stay buried Don’t reach Don’t plead Or They’ll start feeding They’ll start swimming Inside your veins These burdens They’ll mark you Then hook you Then call you by name


Fire of self-doubt spreads I can’t fucking get a grip I turn to comedy; You laugh, I laugh My smile distracts you From my pupil’s truth But you’d be daft Not to notice the Exploding disco balls Of flashing insecurity You feign sightless But you’re not blind As you look past me To the devil … More PSYCHOTIC BREAK


Mom it’s just a two hour drive. I would feel better though if you took the train. Seriously?  I love to drive and I will be fine. I would feel better though if you took the train. What if I promise to stop if I get tired? I would feel better though if you took … More TWO HOUR CAR RIDE


I get stuck sometimes.  I’ll agonize over things I can’t control.  Things I should NOT control.  It takes some time to breathe stability back into my state of being.  Stability is a an emotional muscle and it has to be exercised regularly in order to function when triggered. Stop. Breathe.  Inhale.  Exhale. Focus. Inhale. Exhale. … More PLAY BALL